The Greatest Showman - Chapter 188

[187 Budapest]

Looking at Heather’s bright smile, Renly spread his hands, “I think it’s more likely that I can’t even pass the audition, and then I’ll be eliminated directly. Then you will pass the test and go all the way. In the end, become the new American Idol and realize your dreams.”

At first, Heather thought Renly was joking, giggling, and she was overjoyed, but then she caught the focus and sincerity in Renly’s eyes. , which made the smile froze at the corner of her mouth, she froze in place for a while, and then the smile gradually turned bitter, and it rose on the tip of her tongue, making her almost unable to resist, “It’s not that simple, I am now Even if I need help to eat and walk, how can I go to the ‘American Idol’ to compete?”

“It’s that simple.” Renly’s voice was still gentle and polite, but at this time, he was unequivocal and irrefutable. Se raised his head abruptly and cast his eyes in surprise, “That’s ‘American Idol’! It’s a stage to test your singing, you just need to walk on the stage and sing, no one will mind whether you stand or sit. Lie down.”

Renly’s joking tone was the same as always, but this time Heather didn’t laugh. Anger and irritability began to surge in his heart, and he stopped talking several times before finally bursting out at this moment. , “What do you know? You are not the one who is sick, you are not the one who is lying in the hospital bed, you are not the one who exposes the nurse to the nurse! You don’t understand anything! You can do whatever you want! Anything! You don’t understand! You’re just standing there condescendingly and making innocuous comments, no different from those arrogant narcissists!”

“I understand, I understand.” Renly said nothing. She flinched and looked at Heather unswervingly. The powerful force grabbed Heather by the neck, leaving her with almost nowhere to run. She could only stare at Renly in a daze.

“I know that when the scythe of death hangs around my neck, when basic survival is a luxury, dreams are a luxury that has no effect, even worse than excrement. But I also know that if even myself Give up, give up dreams, give up hope, then everything is meaningless, we are just lingering, like walking dead, struggling to survive, eating and drinking is the whole of life, the brain has no meaning at all, Instinct/ability, all that is left is instinct/ability. There is no difference between one day and ten years, so it might as well end here.”

Renly’s words were still gentle and gentle, but the tenacity hidden in them was powerful. There was a sonorous sound in her ears, and Heather looked at Renly’s bright eyes, and stayed where she was in shock. The powerful energy bursting from the bottom of the abyss, so real, so urgent, so deep, penetrated her. The layers of armor hit the softest part of the heart hard. How could he possibly know? How could he possibly guess all his thoughts?

The shock was so turbulent that she just sat there dumbfounded, unable to say a word, and her soul began to tremble.

“I also know that at the end of my self-pity and self-defeating, I will regret why I didn’t at least try it in the first place. Even if it was just a try.” Renly took a deep breath, and the turbulent emotions in his heart were almost uncontrollable. At this moment, at this moment, he lost control for the first time, because he saw himself in Heather, his last life.

He didn’t know how much pain Heather had endured, because the disease of “gradual freezing” was far more terrifying than imagined; but he knew that in the last life, he didn’t even lose his vitality. Early He was sentenced to death, and the end of the high paraplegic strangled his throat so fiercely that he didn’t even have a chance to struggle; he knew even more that Heather could still fight, still work hard, and still struggle. There are still opportunities, once missed, it will be missed forever.

“This is your dream. If you didn’t make it happen yourself? Who are you praying to do for you? Jesus? Buddha? Creator? Or your parents?” Renly clenched his fists, forcefully Suppressing the turbulent emotions, he knew that it was unfair to Heather. His words were too natural and mixed with too many personal emotions. He had no right to criticize Heather’s life like this.

In the depths of Renly’s sight, Heather captured a trace of struggling pain, although the smear was fleeting, and soon it was hidden behind the eyelashes, covered with a thin layer of mist, and could never be seen again; But Heather could clearly feel that the deep-seated emotion made the soul begin to tremble, deep and turbulent, so real, so profound.

Unprepared, Heather’s eyes filled with tears, because of empathy, but also because of the inner touch. It suddenly dawned on her that, just as Renly couldn’t judge her at will, he didn’t know what she was going through; and vice versa. What story was hidden behind Renly’s wanton rush, she had never understood, and refused to understand. But in those few words just now, Heather felt the fear and vulnerability deep in Renly’s heart.

Same as her.

Renly didn’t speak any further and looked at Heather quietly, he could see her hesitation and struggle, he could see her fear and vulnerability, he could see her pain and anger.

He knew that was easier said than done. He exhausted all the hesitations and hardships of a lifetime, and only then did he wake up in this life and run barefooted desperately; and now Heather is only fifteen years old, even seven years younger than when he was sentenced to death in the last life. , he couldn’t ask her for more. But Renly knew that, if he could turn back time, he would give it all in exchange for a chance, not a chance to start over, but a chance to let go, a chance for a glimmer of hope before it was too late.

He was lucky enough to have a second chance to start over, but what if Heather wasn’t so lucky? More importantly, Heather’s condition has not completely deteriorated yet, and she still has opportunities, but there is not much time left for her.

The fingertips danced gently on the strings again, light and joyful, romantic and poetic, the deep sound of the strings gently hit the eardrum like a drum beat, the golden sunshine, the fragrant coffee, the green grass, the colorful Flowers, black-and-white butterflies, running children… The vivid picture was sketched in my mind unconsciously.

Heather couldn’t help but raised her eyes, and her eyes fell on the shallow smile at the corner of Renly’s mouth. It was sparse and bright, the mottled golden halo gently rippled in the bottom of his eyes, and the messy thoughts were in the brisk string sound. The smoke dissipated.

“My house in Budapest, my treasure chest, my golden grand piano, my wonderful Spanish red wine, for you, you, I am willing to give up everything…”

Renly hummed softly, the slightly The lowered voice was a little low, but it was as elegant and mellow as the strings of a cello. The wonderful emotions were outlined in a few words. Heather couldn’t help but slowly closed his eyes, imagining the old contract in Budapest, A golden piano, dark red wine, and a gleaming treasure chest walk on the dark brown carpet, silently, the oil paintings hanging on both sides show the owner’s artistic taste, and the carved sand and copper teapot are quiet and serene. , the faint scent of tea lingers in the afternoon sun.

All this is beautiful.

“The land I own is so vast that it may be hard for you to believe my sincerity, but for you, you, I am willing to give up everything. Give me a good reason why I shouldn’t change, baby, if you hug me, All obstacles will dissipate.” The

moving melody does not seem to have too complicated arrangements, but each section is as beautiful as poetry, pure to the extreme, simple to the extreme, but it bursts out of the highest realm of reducing complexity to simplicity. The brisk rhythm made Heather’s fingers tap his knees lightly, hitting the rhythm, and even his body couldn’t help but start to shake gently, as if he was wandering in a stream of sunshine flowing, warm and free. , casual and lazy, the fingertips can even touch the rounded arc of the cobblestone, the smooth line of the stream flowing, and the flexible trajectory of the breeze blowing.

The world lights up little by little, and the golden sunlight penetrates the boundless darkness, slowly, slowly, slowly awakening the vitality of all life.

“I have many handmade treasures, and the list is long and long, and if you say those words, I’ll run to you right away, oh run to you, I’m willing to give up everything. Give me a good reason why I shouldn’t change, Baby, if you hug me, all obstacles will dissipate.”

Without holding back, Heather chuckled, as if seeing the long list of parchment rolls piled up at Renly’s feet, dressed in vintage French The court dress, with feathers in his hand, lightly checked the rare treasures above, then raised his chin slightly, and said with a proud face, “I am willing to give up everything.” The understated words were so decisive, the bottom of his eyes With a hint of arrogance and coolness.

The vivid picture really makes people laugh. So, Heather drew the corners of his mouth, letting the smile leak out gently, even overflowing his voice. Cheerful and happy. The body swayed with the rhythm, and the fingertips and toes could no longer bear the loneliness, and began to tap dance.

“My friends and family, they don’t understand, they worry about losing too much, if you hold my hand, but for you, you, I’m willing to give up everything. Give me a good reason why I shouldn’t change, baby , if you hug me, all obstacles will dissipate.” She was

caught off guard, happy to the extreme, happy to the extreme, beautiful to the extreme, warm tears filled her eyes, but she still did not open her eyes, just let the hot tears drop Slipped from the depths of his closed eyes.

She understood, understood the call of the melody, understood the resonance of the lyrics, and understood Renly’s consolation. At this moment, she really understood, as if she had touched her own soul. It’s been a long time, really.

Note: Budapest (bdapestgee-ezra)

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