Princess Medical Doctor - 762. Chapter 762

There is a heavy building to lead the way, and there is no surprise and no danger along the way, and it is like walking around his back garden, so Lin Chujiu doesn’t know what to say.

Seven days later, Lin Chujiu and Chonglou walked out of the forest and walked onto a trail.

Chonglou pointed to the north direction, “That’s the way back to the capital of Dongwen,” moved his arm lightly, and pointed in another direction, “That’s the way to the Demon Palace, where are you going?”

The two directions seemed to give Lin Chujiu a choice, but there was no choice in reality.

Lin Chujiu hesitated and asked weakly, “Can I choose none?” Now she is not subject to the doctor system, she can be regarded as a half-free body, and she doesn’t want to return to the capital anymore. Of course, she didn’t even want to go to the magic palace and face the heavy building.

“Why? I want to go alone?” Zhonglou bit this sentence very hard and spoke very slowly. It was obviously angry, and still very angry.

“I…” Lin Chujiu hesitated for a moment, still gritted his teeth: “I didn’t want to go to the magic palace, nor plan to return to the capital, especially now.”

“Why?” What did Xiao Tianyao do? Make Lin Chujiu so disgusted to go to the capital?

Lin Chujiu didn’t directly answer Chonglou’s words, but tried to make a careless smile, “You know, why did I fall into that tree forest?”

Without waiting for the Chonglou to speak, he replied: “Because I want to go back to Beijing by myself and walk on my own, I let the potential enemy see the opportunity and set up a situation to kill me. You know, in order to let me leave safely. , The people who protected me died in front of me one by one. Because of my waywardness, because of my damn unspeakable self-esteem and low self-esteem, I killed them.”

While speaking, Lin Chujiu’s face was covered with tears, and the tears without a sound made people sad to watch.

“I killed so many people, how can I…how have the face to go back.” Lin Chujiu said more and more self-blame, and finally couldn’t hold it anymore, squatting on the ground, crying with a low headache, “They could not have died. It’s all because of me. I killed them. I really have no face to go back.”

She is not a coward, nor is she timid, but she is really scared, afraid to face the accusations of the dead guarding companions after returning, and afraid to face the accusations of their family members.

“It’s my waywardness, I don’t know what to do, and I killed them. Dozens of lives were ruined because of them. They, they… originally didn’t have to die.” Lin Chujiu bit his lip and tried not to die. Let yourself cry, but the effect is not good.

These days, she has been condemned and disturbed by her conscience. These days, when she closes her eyes, it is the scene of the tragic death of the guards.

These days, she has been hypnotizing herself to make herself forget those things and stop thinking about it, but she can’t do it.

It was okay in the woods, the huge pressure of life made her have no time to think about it, and when she walked out of the woods, no matter how she hypnotized herself, she couldn’t say that she was innocent.

She is guilty, she is the culprit who killed them.

“I regret it, I really regret it. I shouldn’t ask to return to Beijing alone. I shouldn’t be arrogant thinking that I will protect myself. In the end I survived, but the person who protected me died. My waywardness has killed so many people, I really have no face to return to Beijing.”

“If it weren’t for my waywardness, if it wasn’t for me and Xiao Tianyao’s anger, things wouldn’t be like this at all.”

“I killed so many people, how can I have the face to face them back, how can I…”

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The more Lin Chujiu cried, the more sad he was, and the more he cried, the greater his self-blame and guilt. Chonglou stood aside, trying to comfort her several times, but he stretched out his hand halfway and took it back.

He doesn’t seem to comfort people!

Moreover, he does not seem to be qualified.

After waiting for a long time, Lin Chujiu didn’t stop, but there were signs of crying. Chonglou finally couldn’t help but said with a dark face: “Cough cough…Don’t cry, it’s noisy to death.” All the people who protected her died. Now, Lin Chujiu will feel guilty and will blame himself. He can understand, but can he carry all his mistakes on his back?

Besides, they were not killed by Lin Chujiu, but because of their inadequate strength and protection against Lin Chujiu’s disadvantage. It’s good if they haven’t been held accountable for their negligence. Why is Lin Chujiu blaming himself?

“Isn’t it just a few guards? Their duty is to protect you. If they didn’t protect you, they died in the hands of their opponents because of their own lack of strength. What do they do with you?” The dead guards blame themselves and dare not feel guilty. In the face, how can such a woman be Princess Xiao?

“It’s not the first time someone died in front of you. Why are you sad?” Lin Chujiu didn’t feel softhearted before. There are not a few people who died to protect Lin Chujiu before. Although Lin Chujiu was sad, he did not blame himself and did not dare to face it.

Lin Chujiu shook his head, choked and said, “That’s different. It’s not because of me. This time, it’s all because of me. They wouldn’t have to die.” This time, it was all because of her anger and Xiao Tianyao’s anger, her waywardness.

“What’s the difference? Isn’t it all to protect you from disadvantage? Lin Chujiu, this seat has limited patience, you get me up and wipe your face clean, this seat has no spare time to cry with you here.”

But it was just crying. A group of people were half-dead to find Lin Chujiu. She was fine, she didn’t want to report the letter if she was safe, but she didn’t dare to face it because of self-blame and guilt. It was useless.

“You only think about the dead. Have you ever thought about the living? Lin Chujiu, don’t be too selfish.” Chonglou watched Lin Chujiu hugged him, crying like a little pitiful, and there was no reason why he felt like a pity. An unnamed fire.

“People who are alive? Who? No one in the Lin family cares about my life or death. They wish I died early.” Lin Chujiu also cried tired, and after crying, she didn’t feel so uncomfortable.

She is not a weak, kind woman after all. Although I blame myself, I am guilty, and even though I have carried all my faults on my body, I will not die because of excessive grief.

She is selfish, she blames herself, she feels guilty, she is upset, but she never thought of resisting her life.

“Is the Lin family the only person alive in your eyes? Idiot!” Zhonglou had the heart to choke Lin Chujiu to death.

Isn’t this woman always good at talking? What’s wrong now? Every sentence is so irritating that I can’t wait to slap her to death.

“Yes, there is also Xiao Tianyao, the king of Xiao. However, my life and death does not matter to him, right? He can marry another when I die. He is a man and doesn’t have to keep the festival for me.” Lin Chujiu wiped away the tears on his face. “I have been missing for more than 20 days. Xiao Tianyao’s people didn’t find me. They must think I’m dead. It’s not good for anyone when I return to the capital. Trouble, the difference is that the bridge returns to the bridge and passes by.”

Why are you going back?

Back to the capital, it’s just troublesome…