Ferocious Dog of Old - Chapter 77

[Chapter 77]

The older brothers were unaware of the decisive conversation between the two younger brothers at home. In their opinion, the two of them were still only having a big conflict, and even this time it was not easy to reconcile. The atmosphere at home was the same as before, Chi Cheng was still angry and indifferent, and Tao Huainan was still more silent day by day.

“What do you two think? I want to hear.” After dinner, Tao Xiaodong wanted to talk.

Tang Suoyan was getting fruit in the kitchen, and Tao Xiaodong was forced to meet the fruit target every day, so he couldn’t finish it. He called out to Chi Cheng on the balcony and Tao Huainan from the room, and asked them to come over to chat.

Neither of them came out, and they were still stuck as before.

Tang Suoyan brought a plate of fruit for him to eat, and Tao Xiaodong called them over to eat the fruit, but no one paid him any attention.

Tao Xiaodong glanced at Tang Suoyan, sighed and said, “I’m wronged.”

Tang Suoyan raised his hand and stroked his bald head. Now that he is not bald, he has a little stubble and still has a very stylish inch. Xiaodong has always been very particular about being able to babble, and is very beautiful.

“Then what to do,” Tang Suoyan said, “or Brother Yan will take care of them for you.”

Tao Xiaodong said quickly, “It’s not necessary.”

“Then you are wronged, there is no way.” Tang Suoyan said.

Tao Huainan hasn’t left the room much since he said that to Chi Cheng. He couldn’t make it through the night, and he hasn’t closed his eyes for three or four days. He slept for a long time that night, and he slept for nearly twenty hours without waking up no matter how much he slept.

When I woke up, it was already the next evening, and it was getting dark.

The brothers may not have returned yet, and the house was so quiet that there was even a lifeless stagnation. Tao Huainan squeezed the watch in his ear, then sat for a while, and put down the watch in silence.

He put on the headset again, and for the next two days, no one spoke.

There are some soothing piano songs in the headphones, slow and continuous tunes, which can make people more quiet and peaceful.

The light in front of Tao Huainan could roughly make him distinguish between day and night, and his life before and after the college entrance examination was very chaotic. Occasionally someone came to see him, Tao Huainan covered his earphones and wouldn’t let them pick them up, and didn’t want to listen to them.

He became a wilted, lifeless mute.

This is a far cry from the old Tao Huainan, who is almost sick now.

Tao Xiaodong finally relented and ignored his wishes. He half-forced Tao Huainan into the car, and took him to the hospital in the end. Tao Huainan said nothing along the way, even when he arrived at the hospital. His mouth was tightly closed, his face was pale, and no matter what the people around him said, he just couldn’t hear it.

He resisted his brother taking him to the hospital with silence.

No matter how good-tempered Tao Xiaodong was, he was about to get angry, but he was not just angry, but more worried and anxious. Such Tao Huainan made him a little panicked.

The psychiatrist is a friend of Brother Tang. He talked to Tang Suoyan and Tao Xiaodong for a while, saying that Tao Huainan might come to do psychological intervention regularly after that. More did not tell Tao Xiaodong, just said don’t force him first, let Tang Suoyan pick a time when Tao Huainan is in good condition and make an appointment with him in advance.

Chi Cheng didn’t go to the hospital with him, he just lay on Tao Huainan’s bed, lying in his original position, with his limbs spread out, staring straight at the ceiling.

When Tao Huainan was brought back, he went directly back to the bed. He sat up and felt that there was someone there.

He connected the headset to the phone, held the phone in his hand, and stopped moving.

The two of them were sitting next to each other in silence, one sitting and the other lying down, peacefully in the same room, neither noisy nor noisy, just like before.

Tao Xiaodong stood at the door and watched for a while, seeing that the two of them stayed silent, not intending to quarrel.

He frowned and came out, Tang Suoyan patted his back silently to comfort him.

They slept like this that night, one lying down and the other sitting down.

Tao Huainan kept this position and slept all night, and when he woke up in the morning, there was no one around.

This trip to the hospital still stimulated Tao Huainan. He became more anxious than before, with an unexplained impatience on his face, and he was a little flustered about what to do.

After shutting himself up for two days, Tao Huainan started not sleeping again. He even chewed coffee beans raw. At night, he would walk around the room barefoot with the door closed, not allowing himself to sit or lie down.

He and Chi Cheng didn’t say anything to each other since the last time they had the same conversation. They are no longer tit for tat, but they are no longer close.

They seemed to have returned to the time when Chi Cheng had just arrived when they were children. During the day, the adults were not at home, and the children did not speak. The difference is that at that time Tao Huainan still had ten grandfathers, but now he doesn’t.

Tao Huainan has been wearing pajamas with long sleeves and trousers recently, covering her arms and legs tightly.

There are several long cuts on the inside of his arms, very shallow, not deep. In the drawer of the bedside table, there are tissues that Tao Huainan wiped his arms, and they hide them there at night.

There are many secrets hidden in this room, the intimate intimacy between him and Chi Cheng, and the fear and struggle that Tao Huainan can’t express now.

Brother Tang went to work, he went out to do some errands and would come back later, and only he and Chi Cheng were left at home. Chi Cheng didn’t know where he was. Tao Huainan guessed that he might be on the balcony. He liked to stand on the balcony when he was a child. Later, every time Tao Huainan made him angry, Chi Cheng also liked to go there.

Tao Huainan was so sleepy that he hadn’t closed his eyes for three days.

He lifted the pillow, turned over the corners of the mattress, and took a paper cutter from below. He pushed out the tip of the knife and quickly slashed the inside of his arm, the sharp tingling sensation that made him suddenly awake.

Tao Huainan took a breath, took a piece of paper and pressed it on his arm. This shallow stroke would keep him refreshed for hours without feeling sleepy.

“Tao Huainan.” When Chi Cheng’s voice suddenly sounded, Tao Huainan shuddered violently, and even stopped breathing, choked in his throat, causing a pain in his chest.

“What are you doing?” His voice was calm and hoarse, very cold and deep.

Tao Huainan couldn’t move. He didn’t know how long Chi Cheng had been standing here. He didn’t even seem to have to do the act of hiding his arms behind him, it didn’t make any sense.

He hasn’t had a bloody face these days, but now he’s flushed red from the breath.

“What about you?” Chi Cheng’s eyes were scarlet and terrifying. He leaned against the wall, his hands hanging weakly at his sides, staring at Tao Huainan, “What are you doing?”

Tao Huainan’s lips trembled uncontrollably, and the inside of his mouth At the same time, the lip flesh and tongue that had been bitten by him began to ache violently. The air that was stuck in the throat was slowly inhaled into the lungs, and the entire chest cavity was suffocated.

“Self-mutilation?” Chi Cheng walked towards him, stood beside the bed and looked at him, at Tao Huainan’s messy arms, at his scared eyes and desperate face.

Chi Cheng asked him softly: “Just to force me away?”

Tao Huainan quickly shook his head: “No!”

“You even played with knives in order to let me go?” Chi Cheng didn’t finish his words, as if in disbelief He laughed himself, his eyes were so red that he wanted to bleed, the blue veins on his forehead were all collapsed, he gritted his teeth and squeezed between his teeth and asked, “…You hate me so much?”

Tao Huainan still shook his head violently. , the flushed blood receded again, and his face was as white as paper. He kept shaking his head and repeated despairingly: “I don’t… I don’t hate you… I don’t… I only hate myself.

” I hate you too.” Chi Cheng followed his words and repeated, “You’re too good, Tao Huainan.”

Tao Huainan was holding the knife with his fist pressed against his heart, tears rolling down embarrassingly, Tao Huainan was emotional He was about to collapse, and he was pumping hard with every breath. He was speechless, like a wounded animal that could only whimper.

Chi Cheng held Tao Huainan’s arm that was full of knife marks. Tao Huainan didn’t seem to feel the pain. He didn’t even blink his eyes.

Chi Cheng slowly pushed up his sleeve, and there were light marks scattered all over his left arm, one after another.

The squeamish little girl who used to be afraid of love and crying, now slashes a knife on herself neatly and simply.

Chi Cheng touched Tao Huainan’s head, his movements were gentle, but his voice was indifferent: “Tao Huainan, no matter what your reasons are today, I will not forgive you.”

Tao Huainan nodded, crying sadly, and said, “Thank you Little brother grew up with me.”

“No thanks,” Chi Cheng stroked his forehead with his fingers, crossed his eyebrows, and wiped his tears on Tao Huainan’s face, “Yes, I also thank you and brother for keeping me alive. .”

Tao Huainan cried so hard that he was shaking under Chi Cheng’s palm.

When Chi Cheng’s hand grabbed Tao Huainan’s hand holding the knife, Tao Huainan began to use all his strength to earn it.

How could he earn more than Chi Cheng, every time he hangs on Chi Cheng, Chi Cheng can hold his buttocks with one hand. Brother once laughed and said that Chi Cheng’s hands were all carried out by him.

Tao Huainan was grasped by Chi Cheng, and he started screaming like crazy.

He used all his strength to pull his hands away, but he still couldn’t do it.

He was taken by Chi Cheng and pressed the tip of the knife to Chi Cheng’s heart.

Tao Huainan has gone mad. He screamed so loudly that his throat was broken, and his whole body was shaking like a dying dog.

“Little brother, spare me—” Tao Huainan begged, using his other hand to break Chi Cheng’s fingers, “Please, please—”

But he was still held by Chi Cheng and used the tip of his knife to rub Chi Cheng’s finger. A slow, long cut was made on his skin.

“Ah—” Tao Huainan shouted hysterically, jumping out of bed in despair and trying to pull himself away, he tried in vain to delay the other shoulder, “don’t scratch me please—it’s my fault… Please—I shouldn’t be alive, please let go, please…it hurts—”

His screaming and crying and begging didn’t make Chi Cheng let go even a little bit, the knife was in Chi Cheng’s heart Left a deep one.

The smell of blood filled his nose, and Tao Huainan felt that he had gone crazy.

When Chi Cheng finally let go of his hand, Tao Huainan’s hand had already been earned by himself and was almost unconscious.

Tao Huainan was still screaming, Chi Cheng took a knife as if through the flesh and cut directly on Tao Huainan’s soul, cutting his soul in half.

“Tao Huainan.” Chi Cheng’s voice was full of heavy breathing, and the gritty feeling in his voice sounded painful.

Tao Huainan was still pulled by the emotions just now and couldn’t recover. He was shaking violently and crying, stomping his legs on the floor.

“Regardless of your reason,” Chi Cheng stared at him and said word by word, “I don’t forgive you.”

[End of This Chapter]