Ferocious Dog of Old - Chapter 62

[Chapter 62]

After he had finished speaking, Tao Huainan had already planned to go back to sleep.

However, Chi Cheng’s sentence was too poignant, and directly pinned Tao Huainan in place.

“I said this to protect him?” Tao Huainan turned towards Chi Cheng in disbelief, “Do you really think so?”

Chi Cheng stared silently at Tao Huainan in the dark, Tao Huainan was under his sight Breathing is getting heavier. After so many days of depression, Tao Huainan knew that Chi Cheng was angry, and he didn’t dare to breathe. At this moment, his emotions were suddenly poked into a small hole by Chi Cheng’s words and leaked.

He walked back until his leg touched Chi Cheng, and his voice was not as pressing as before: “You and I are angry and I’m going to die. Who do I still have the heart to protect?”

Tao Huainan pointed to his heart, bowed his head and followed Chi Cheng said: “I’m blocked here every day, I can’t sleep at night, and I think about it all day…”

Tao Huainan took a deep breath, his fingertips were shaking a little, and there was a trembling in his voice. : “I’m weak, I’m a waste, I can’t protect anyone…”

Tao Huainan paused for a while before continuing, he stubbornly lowered his head in Chi Cheng’s direction, in fact he didn’t know his direction Not aligned at all, standing a little off. The blind man is like this, thinking that he is aiming at the person he wants to see, but he is actually aiming at the air. Before speaking again, he paused for a while before saying, “If I can be like you, and I can protect others, then I just want to protect you and brother… But I can’t, you are my trust.”

His voice became more and more uncontrollable. The door to his brother’s room was not closed, and Tao Huainan didn’t think about anything now. He and Chi Cheng were in a chaotic state these days, and those repressed and embarrassed emotions pushed Tao Huainan to the breaking point.

Chi Cheng stretched out his hand towards him, Tao Huainan’s fingertips were cold, Tao Huainan took his hand away.

“Okay.” Chi Cheng said and stretched out his hand again, “No more.”

Tao Huainan also took his hand away again, and lifted it up and wiped it hard at the eyes, and at a glance, he knew that his eyes would be rubbed red: “How could I protect others in front of you… for others to follow you? Don’t you feel sad?”

Chi Cheng tried a little harder when he held him again, but Tao Huainan couldn’t break free.

Not knowing which word hit Chi Cheng, Chi Cheng squeezed Tao Huainan’s hand and stared at him: “You still know how sad?”

“Why don’t I know?” The other hand pushed Chi Cheng forward, “It’s not that I don’t care, why don’t I know?” After that, I

really need to wake up, but Tao Huainan doesn’t care about anything now, and his whole body is shaking a little: ” Do you think I want it? I don’t want to grow up at all, and now I’m afraid to continue to grow up. It’s as good as when I was a child.

” Rubbing his eyes heavily, he vented his anger, “Do you really think I’d like it?”

Tao Huainan didn’t often quarrel like this. They usually got angry lately, and he didn’t dare to say a word. Today’s Tao Huainan has a small thorn, and his emotions are a little out of control.

“I wanted to hold you with my eyes closed like I did when I was a kid, but when I grew up…”

“What’s the matter?” Brother’s voice came from his room, and it still woke him up.

Tao Xiaodong put on his slippers and walked out: “What are you two arguing about?”

Tao Huainan twisted his neck and did not speak, but Chi Cheng said “it’s okay”.

“You two have been awkward lately,” Tao Xiaodong turned on the light, “are you still making trouble in the middle of the night?”

Chi Cheng was squinted by the light, Tao Huainan was not sensitive to the faint light, so he didn’t blink. He could see him clearly under the light, and there were large teardrops on his face that had not been wiped away, which had slipped down to his cheeks, and his eyes were red, half of which was emotionally aroused, and half of which was just rubbed with his hands. , Under the cold light, the already white skin looked a little pitiful at the moment.

“What kind of temper are you playing?” Tao Xiaodong rubbed his head and wiped the big drop of water on his face, “Don’t let me sleep here in the middle of the night to piss off your little brother?”

Chi Cheng was still holding his wrist, Tao Huainan He pursed his lips and said nothing.

Tao Xiaodong wanted to separate them, so he tugged at Tao Huainan: “I have something to say tomorrow.”

Tao Huainan tensed his chin and was stubborn, obviously still annoyed. On the other hand, he didn’t go to earn Chi Cheng’s hand, and he didn’t go with his brother.

“It’s okay, brother.” Chi Cheng let go of Tao Huainan’s wrist and switched to holding his hand. Tao Huainan was silent and quietly held him back, Chi Cheng scratched the back of his hand with his thumb, and said to Tao Xiaodong, “Go back to sleep. Right .”

“I don’t usually see you two arguing. What’s the matter? It’s still arguing.” Tao Xiaodong saw the two of them holding hands in the corner of his eye, he didn’t look at them deliberately, he just said, “Otherwise, come to sleep with me, don’t. I won’t be able to go to school tomorrow.”

Tao Huainan shook his head and said, “ No.”

Tao Huainan had a small leaking balloon, and he asked his brother to come out and block it. . Brother stood in front of him for a few minutes, and all his emotions passed.

Tao Huainan was led back to the room by Chi Cheng, and he closed his mouth and said nothing.

The corners of my eyes were a little red under the light just now, and the sleeves of my pajamas rubbed the corners of my eyes so badly, it hurts a little now. Tao Huainan raised his hand to touch it, but Chi Cheng stopped him and told him not to touch it.

Just got out of control and made a big fire, and now Tao Huainan is a little awkward when facing Chi Cheng. I can’t tell if it’s because the emotions just now didn’t pass and there is no reason for it, or it’s embarrassment after being excited.

Chi Cheng closed the door, Tao Huainan sat beside the bed, Chi Cheng stood and asked him, his voice sounded not as cold as before: “What’s wrong with growing up?”

Tao Huainan didn’t quite understand, and subconsciously raised his head and opened his mouth.

After reacting, he closed his mouth again and lowered his head, revealing a fragile arc on his neck.

Chi Cheng had been standing in front of him waiting for him to speak, Tao Huainan only whispered after a long time, “I don’t even dare to say that you are my… puppy.”

Chi Cheng was silent for a long time before Tao Huainan finished speaking. This sentence didn’t make a sound anymore, time flowed slowly, and everything in the room was silent.

Later, Chi Cheng squatted down and put his hand on the back of Tao Huainan’s hand leaning on the edge of the bed.

“I said you don’t need to grow up,” Chi Cheng tapped on one knee, squatted in front of Tao Huainan to look at him, and slowly said to him, “You don’t need to think so much.

” He shook his head sharply.

“I don’t like it when you push me away, because this and that can’t work.” When Chi Cheng said this, his voice was firm, and he couldn’t refuse. “No.”

When he said “no”, he was even slightly Fierce, but Tao Huainan was not afraid.

“Have you noticed, Tao Huainan.” Chi Cheng touched his face and scratched lightly on his face, “You know more and more how to make me hurt.”

Tao Huainan shuddered, this sentence made me His scalp was numb.

“You said that you are most afraid of me getting angry, but you are not afraid at all.” Chi Cheng sounded gentle when he whispered, and he is indeed gentle now. He speaks calmly without any temper, but every sentence It made Tao Huainan’s heart tremble.

“You know more and more how to cure me. You deliberately fell and hurt yourself. You deliberately told me that when you grew up, you stabbed me more and more hard. This makes me angry, but you also know that It’s okay if I’m angry.”

Chi Cheng put down his hand and covered the back of his hand again, his voice was calm and gentle: “You have learned a lot when you grow up, you will understand more in the future, and then do what you think is right. You know how to deal with me. , what is the most accurate way to use the knife.”

Tao Huainan’s tears fell on his knees, burning him like a fire.

Chi Cheng’s words were a fire point, burning his heart into fire holes.

Chi Cheng’s “pain” made Tao Huainan panic. He touched Chi Cheng’s face, eyes and mouth. He wanted to say “I’m sorry”, wanted to say “You don’t hurt”.

“Don’t grow up,” Chi Cheng kissed Tao Huainan’s palm, and his voice called him softly, “Child.”

Tao Huainan shed a few big tears when arguing with Chi Cheng in the living room just now. It was an emotional outburst. At this moment, he couldn’t stop it, and his heart seemed to be pinched and the pain continued.

“Don’t hurt,” Tao Huainan rubbed his eyes on Chi Cheng’s shoulder, “Don’t hurt… It’s my fault, it’s all my fault.”

Chi Cheng clasped the back of his head with his backhand and gently grabbed his hair. Tao Huainan went down and kissed Chi Cheng’s neck, carefully and sincerely: “I’m very sorry for you saying this… I’m sorry little brother.”

Chi Cheng’s pulse passed through the thin skin and touched Tao Huainan’s lips, beating regularly It can bring the same sense of security as listening to the heartbeat. Tao Huainan kissed there reluctantly, tremblingly said, “I can’t do it anymore.”

That night Tao Huainan was in Chi Cheng’s arms, holding him tightly.

He buried his face in Chi Cheng, turned himself into the same body temperature as Galloping, and got the same smell as Chi Cheng.

Chi Cheng patted him on the back occasionally. After Tao Huainan cried, he leaned on Chi Cheng and gasped from time to time.

After crying so big, he still looks like a child. After crying for a long time, he has to breathe slowly after crying for a long time.

“Are you still crying?” Chi Cheng leaned back and looked at his face.

Even though there was moonlight in the room with the lights off, he could n’t see the tears clearly. Chi Cheng reached out to touch it. Tao Huainan grabbed his hand and put it on his heart. ?” Chi Cheng said.

“Don’t you have to take a moment just after crying,” Tao Huainan sniffed, “I’m not pretending to cry.”

“Don’t pretend, it’s annoying enough to cry,” Chi Cheng tapped his finger beside the end of his eye. Knocked, “Does it hurt?”

“A little.” Tao Huainan put his face back on Chi Cheng again, and his unconstrained mind didn’t know how to turn to where he turned his face, and said, “I really have no protection. With Ji Nan.”

Chi Cheng said “um”, as if he was a little impatient, and said, “I see.”

It’s already the middle of the night after the tossing, and this night is basically no sleep.

Tao Huainan was so full of emotions that he couldn’t sleep at all. He kept thinking about what Chi Cheng said just now, and those words were going around in his mind, and Tao Huainan could never forget them.

Chi Cheng didn’t sleep either, but they didn’t talk anymore.

They hugged each other like countless nights, listening to each other’s heartbeats. Until the moon slowly fades, until the sky gradually turns white.

Tao Huainan couldn’t feel the slow change of light. When the light passed in front of him, he felt Chi Cheng kiss his slightly stinging eyes.

Chi Cheng bit Tao Huainan’s swollen eyelids with his lips and said, “I cried so much that my eyes became swollen.”

The temperature of the lips touching the eyelids was a little hot, Tao Huainan snorted comfortably, and put his hands on Chi Cheng’s pajamas. Scratched lightly.

[End of This Chapter]