Deep in the Act - Chapter 8

[Chapter 8]

At 10:07 p.m., Fang Chi lay on the bed at home and dialed the number recorded in the consultation record book.

“Hello?” It was Zuo Linlin who answered the phone, and he sighed, “Is Micro Zhun there? He doesn’t answer the phone.”

“What’s wrong with you two?” The tone on the other end was a bit complaining.

“Something went wrong…” Fang Chi looked impatient: “He hasn’t come for treatment for two weeks, can you let him answer the phone?”

Zuo Linlin went to call Micro Motion, but there was no reply. The phone hangs up.

Fang Chi felt his head was going to explode, holding his breath, he dialed it again: “Hey, Lin Lin, tell him, if I have something to tell him, just say one word.”

Zuo Linlin complained to him: “What the hell are you doing?”

What’s wrong!” He said looking for Gao Zhun.

Fang Chi stared at the wall clock on the wall for thirty seconds, one minute, two minutes, and at the end of the third minute, someone seemed to be listening on the other end. He hurriedly said, “Mr. Gao?”

There was no answer, but he knew he was there , he could hear his slender breathing: “Mr. Gao.”

Hearing him call his name, Micro Motion’s breathing trembled, even a little out of control, Fang Chi said: “I was wrong…maybe you don’t want to talk to me anymore… I consulted, I… just want to tell you that from the first meeting, every word I said to you, every emotion we experienced together, I put real feelings into it, please don’t doubt this ”

Micro Motion didn’t answer the phone, and we haven’t seen each other for more than two weeks. Fang Chi knew that he was still very attached to his voice, so he chose to play another emotional card: “These days… how are you? ?” The

phone hung up with a “beep” and a busy tone. Fang Chi thought about it quickly and dialed for the third time. It took a long time for Zuo Linlin to pick up: “Charles, don’t call again, he… he He

seems to be crying.”

Fang Chi guessed: “How has he been in the past two weeks?”

“It’s very bad, he doesn’t sleep all night, and the company is not going well… We sleep separately, I don’t know what he does at night. What… wine, yes, he drank a lot.”

Fang Chi clenched

his fists, it was his responsibility, he even regretted accepting Zuo Linlin’s commission before: “Try to persuade him to come to me, OK?”

It took a long time to put down the microphone in a daze. He has had many patients, some were cured immediately, some were delayed, and some were in crisis due to improper treatment, but he had never been so troubled by sleep and food.

He doesn’t know what’s wrong with him, maybe it’s because of Micro Motion’s mystery?

He’s been slow to confide in him, challenged by his intransigence?

Or because he is Zuo Linlin’s boyfriend?

He remembered the sound of breathing on the phone just now, so fragile and helpless, he remembered the way he smiled and nodded in the elevator, he remembered those good suits, expensive leather shoes and bags, and that thin waist… He gave himself a mouth, he He felt that the whole world should rush out to blame him, but when he looked up, the empty apartment was silent.

“C’est la vie…” He rubbed his brows and slid to the soft blanket.

He didn’t sleep well, and there were always voices calling in his ears, begging for help, cursing, crying, and cell phone ringing, A Fine Frenzy’s “Almost Lover”——

I never wanna see you unhappy, I thought you want the same for me, Goodbye my almost lover, Goodbye my hopeless dream…

He opened his eyes suddenly, it was his cell phone ringing.

Turning on the bedside lamp, the alarm clock showed 3:20 in the morning. He cursed. Recently, a personality disorder patient of his often called him in the middle of the night, but he squinted his eyes and grabbed the phone. It was a familiar number that had not been recorded.

“Hello?” He answered lazily.

There was no sound from the other end, so he said “Hello” again, but it was still the same. Suddenly, he blurted out: “Micro Motion?”

He regretted it as soon as he said it. If it was another patient, it would be a dereliction of duty to call him the wrong name. If it was Micro Motion, he should also call him “Mr. Gao”. At this time, the other end spoke, a deep male voice: “Fang Doctor…”

It is indeed Micro Motion, with a hoarse voice, lowered, and timidly said: “Did I disturb your rest… You, you said that I can call you, I didn’t drink at night because you called The phone is coming, I want to do better…”

“Wait, talk slowly,” Fang Chi woke up, got out of bed and found a pen and paper: “What’s wrong with you?”

“I can’t sleep… I can’t sleep when I close my eyes Have a

nightmare.”

Fang Chi felt that what he was talking about might not be a nightmare, but a flashback of a traumatic situation: “What kind of dream?”

There was a sobbing sound on the other end of the phone, and he might have cried: “It’s still that dream, but this time in the dream With you, you…”

Fang Chi recorded carefully: “What’s wrong with me?”

“I dreamed that you pointed at me and said that you looked down on me.” I’m

afraid!”

“How could I look down on you?” Fang Chi was calm, even a little excited, this call showed that his previous call worked, at least it aroused Micro Motion’s dependence on him: “I know that you have been in the past two weeks It’s not easy, you’ve always wanted to see me, tell me, call me, don’t you? Say what’s on your mind now, and I’m listening.”

He thought Micro Motion would cry and say yes, saying he missed him , I don’t want to call him all the time, but what Micro Motion said is: “If even you look down on me…” He said calmly: “Then what’s the point of my life, I might as well die.”

This is suicidal tendency!

Fang Chi’s heart was beating almost out of his chest, but he didn’t show it: “Where are you now?”

This question seemed to be beyond Micro Motion’s expectations: “In…in the bathroom, I’m afraid I’ll wake her up.”

” Do you dare to go downstairs?” Fang Chi said while looking for clothes: “Are you afraid of the dark?”

“I…I dare not go downstairs, what’s wrong?”

“I can get to your place in half an hour. I may not be able to enter the gate of the park. Give me the house number and I will find a way.” The

other end of the phone fell silent, Fang Chi thought he was going to refuse, and many depressed patients tend to shrink back , He was about to persuade him, but Gao Zhun asked him in disbelief: “You want to come…for me?”

“Yes.”

“Now?” He confirmed repeatedly.

“Yes, give me your house number.”

“You can’t come in, the property is very strict,” he seemed to muster up his courage: “I’ll go down to pick you up.”

Fang Chi was so surprised that his tone changed a bit: ” Can you?”

Micro Motion took a deep breath: “I can.”

Fang Chi got dressed and went out within five minutes, went to the underground parking lot, drove his Volvo, and drove up the ramp in the darkness.

It may be at the beginning of the lunar calendar, there is no moon in the sky, only the hazy yellow light of the street lights on both sides, he speeds up to 120, galloping on the road like a rebellious boy.

He was amazed by his frivolity. Back then, he had ridden across half of the city in order to see his first love girlfriend, but he was far from this kind of energy. The adrenaline was too strong, and his heart was beating like a drum. In a few minutes, he drove to the park of Micro Motion’s home, and saw a thin figure standing under the only street light from a distance.

He didn’t even stop the car, turned off the engine and threw it to the side of the road, got out of the car and ran over.

Gao Zhun looked in his direction, he must have been terrified, Fang Chi couldn’t imagine how he walked such a long night road alone without daring to sleep.

Even after seeing him, Micro Motion still didn’t dare to step out of the circle of lights. He was wearing a suit and tie, with his hair hanging down his forehead, and he had a different kind of fragility.

Fang Chi stood in front of him, his breath was a little disordered, both of them had gone through an unusual journey to stand here, the emotions accumulated along the way had no outlet to burst out, or could not burst out, they were just doctors and patients, kept rational Two adults at a reasonable distance, two men.

Fang Chi looked at Micro Motion from top to bottom to confirm his safety, noticed his clenched fist, and asked, “What’s in your hand?”

Micro Motion seemed to have just recovered from the ecstasy of seeing him, He stretched out his hand hesitantly, and slowly opened it. Inside was a crumpled business card. Fang Chi recognized it at a glance. It was the one he gave Micro Motion to him from the business card holder when he came to consult on the first day.

“I’ll call you with my business card, and then…” Micro Motion was slightly shy.

He lied, Fang Chi stared at him, it was impossible to hold a business card in his clothes and tie, Micro Motion went downstairs with his business card on purpose, it was his courage: “I’m here, throw it away, I’ll give it to you One piece.”

Gao Zhun didn’t speak, the two just looked at each other face to face, their eyes were sore, Fang Chi said: “Let’s go, I’ll take you back.” The

gatekeeper of the park is from Henan, and he recognizes Gao Zhun. , called “Mr. Gao” very affectionately, and watched him lead Fang Chi in. The park is very large, with many old trees with thick branches growing. Sticking to Fang Chi, although he didn’t say anything, it was obvious that he was afraid of the darkness.

Fang Chi hardly did any careful thinking. As soon as he flipped his hand, he grabbed the cold hand next to him. Micro Motion took a breath, and immediately held him back, so hard, so entangled, walking like this, Fang Chi said : “Tell me about your dream?”

“I dare not…” Micro Motion’s voice was ethereal and unreal.

“What are you afraid of?”

“I don’t know,” he choked up, and tears rolled down his cheeks: “I’m afraid of thinking about that, but it’s always there…I’m afraid that Lin Lin will know, I’m afraid that my mother will know, I’m afraid of everything People know, and now I am most afraid of you knowing… Then I am really alone…”

Fang Chi became more curious about his experience, took his hand and squeezed it: “I want to know.”

Micro Motion stopped, as if he was about to open the door of his heart to him, but after hesitating again and again, he flinched, and instead, tears flowed from his swollen face into Fang Chi’s heart.

The tender flesh on the tip of his heart seemed to be stabbed hard, Fang Chi gently embraced him, hugged him into his arms, like a loving mother hugging a baby: “It’s okay, I’m here.”

They stood in a half-dead tree Under the banyan tree, hugging each other tightly, Micro Motion’s face was buried in Fang Chi’s neck, Fang Chi only felt that that piece of skin was about to be burned by tears, as hot as flames.

Gao Zhun’s crying was silent, just like his dignity, Fang Chi unconsciously hugged him tighter, this body was too thin, his back was no longer enough to grasp, he slowly stroked his back , sticking to his ear: “Look, you can accept being touched by others, and fear can also be overcome.”

His breath was too hot, Micro Motion shrank his head to hide, and his voice murmured: “…only You.”

Fang Chi thought it was weird, hugging him was like hugging a girl, which made him feel a little blissful, Micro Motion went downstairs in the middle of the night without wearing perfume, he sniffed it secretly, and there was a kind of tranquil body fragrance: “I I heard your heartbeat, did you hear mine?”

Gao Zhun nodded in his arms, they were so close, as if they were about to become one person, Fang Chi felt that maybe this was an opportunity: “You didn’t Homework,” he said, holding the back of Micro Motion’s neck with one hand, and the other hand went up along the waistline, stopping on his small and tight tie knot: “It strangles you too tightly.”

Gao It must be like a well-trained cat. As soon as the base of the neck is held by Fang Chi, it obediently raises its head and looks at him in panic in the dark: “Are you disappointed in me?”

Fang Chi’s slender fingers circled him His tie knot: “I want to untie it,” he felt the Adam’s apple sliding when Micro Motion swallowed, he put his index finger in from the back of the tie knot, and hooked the knot: “Can you?”

Micro Motion was hesitating, he After hesitating, he pursed his lips tightly, and Fang Chi held his hand harder: “Can you?”

Gao Zhun was forced to nod, and when he nodded, Fang Chi’s hand slowly pulled down, and there was a clear rubbing sound. Wiping the eardrums, Micro Motion closed his eyes and let Fang Chi pull the entire tie off his neck, trembling all over his body.

Fang Chi casually held his trophy, watching it swing back and forth in the breeze: “You are free.”

Gao Zhun still closed his eyes, and Fang Chi noticed his trembling, so he changed his tie and put his hand on his. On the constantly heaving chest, he wrapped his neck: “It’s okay, it’s okay, don’t be afraid…”

At this moment, a beam of light shot over, and out of the idea of protecting Micro Motion, Fang Chi subconsciously wrapped his arms around him in his arms , Passing by was a team of patrolling property, the leader was the Henan man at the door just now, holding a flashlight, he stared at the two of them in surprise.

“Gao, Mr. Gao?” He wanted to come over.

The companion with the same accent as him hurried over to pull him, and said while pulling: “You are stupid, people are doing that!”

They made a noise and walked away, and they could hear faint voices: “…What are you doing?”

“That What, called gay!”