Deep in the Act - Chapter 6

[Chapter 6]

Fang Chi had an academic symposium today, and all the patients were turned down. He asked Secretary Feng to keep only Micro Motion’s appointment.

At five past four, he hurried out of the elevator and trotted into the clinic, just in time to see Secretary Feng pulling Micro Motion with a troubled face, as if asking him to help tie her newly bought silk scarf.

“Mr. Gao.” Fang Chi was not very happy.

Gao Zhun turned around, and his expression was vivid for a moment. He was anxious and troubled, but when he saw Fang Chi, he immediately showed that kind of gentle and reserved expression, like a baby bird trembling when seeing a flock of birds returning from afar. Lushui met Chunfeng: “Doctor Fang,” he chuckled, “I heard from Ms. Feng that you came back specially, and you’re in trouble.”

Emotion is a kind of projection, and Fang Chi clearly felt his affection for and dependence on him: “Gao Sir, please wait a moment, Secretary Feng, come with me.”

Walking into the consultation room, he put down his leather bag, and asked Secretary Feng to close the door, and then pointed at her mercilessly: “I told you, keep a distance from patients, Don’t let me see it again, go out.”

Secretary Feng was wronged: “I…”

Fang Chi was impatient, he was already five minutes late, and he didn’t want Gao Zhun to wait another five minutes: “Mr. Gao has a fiancee I’m getting married soon, let’s go out!”

Secretary Feng lowered his head and did not move, he strode over, opened the door for her, and at the same time greeted Gao Zhun with a smile: “Mr. Gao, please come in.”

Of course Gao Zhun noticed the two Fang Chi habitually gave him a hand on the back when Secretary Feng entered the door by mistake, and he immediately shivered nervously.

Fang Chi’s hand keenly felt the tension. Next, he wanted to get the remote control of the air conditioner, but he hesitated. After quickly weighing the pros and cons, he decided to do this experiment.

“Mr. Gao, I’m so sorry,” he pointed to the air conditioner in the corner of the room: “The air conditioner has been broken for the past two days, can you please overcome it?” The

outdoor temperature is 35 degrees Celsius, although it is past four o’clock, the sun is still red, Micro Motion Had a partner meeting in the morning, wearing a formal vest and wide tie, but still agreed without hesitation: “Okay.”

Fang Chi was also wearing a suit, but not as formal as him. He took off his coat and put it on the back of the chair, walked over to Micro Motion and sat down diagonally: “Let’s continue the topic from last time—early pictures.

” Fang Chi can imagine that he looked like this when he was a student, humble, obedient, and excellent: “Mr. Gao, have you ever experienced any failures?”

“Failure?” Gao Zhun seemed to be interested This word is very unfamiliar: “I have experienced abnormal performance in exams, bottlenecks in career development, and breaking up with my girlfriend, but I didn’t feel like a failure. Does this count?”

Very confident, Fang Chi wrote down in the notebook: “Then these things have something to do with it. Didn’t leave a picture for you?”

Gao Zhun thought for a while: “Maybe I broke up with my girlfriend.” He pursed his lips in embarrassment: “My girlfriend in college, at that time I… had no money, was very rustic, she I look down on me a little bit, I remember that the weather was so good that day, she left my dormitory, I stood on the balcony and looked at her, she shook her long hair and looked very happy.” Speaking of this, he actually smiled: “At that time I My roommate is cooking instant noodles, and let me eat all the braised beef!”

Fang Chi followed him and laughed, it seems that this relationship did not bring trauma to Micro Motion, he was about to ask the next question, Micro Motion suddenly Said: “Oh, by the way, I met her last year, and she tried her best to chase me back for two months.”

“And then?” Fang Chi followed.

Micro Motion is so simple and cold: “There is no after.”

Fang Chi realized that this person is not as innocent and fragile as he looks, and he also has his evil side. The sudden realization made him feel the need to change his strategy: “Actually, I was dumped by my girlfriend before.”

Moderate self-disclosure is the basic quality that a psychologist should possess: “It’s just that I’m not as lucky as you, and the one who can’t get through is me.”

Micro Motion was sweating profusely, but still looked Very concerned, this reaction was in line with Fang Chi’s expectations: “She may be getting married soon…”

Gao Zhun wanted to ask something, Fang Chi beat him a step: “You are very hot, take off your coat.”

Micro Motion was stunned, and the timid and fearful expression returned: “No… I’m fine.”

“Take it off, take off your tie too,” he pointed to the wardrobe by the door, smiling kindly: ” Hangers are provided, so you don’t have to worry about wrinkling.”

“It’s really unnecessary…” Micro Motion began to avoid his gaze, crossing his hands and circling his chest, this movement seemed casual, but it was actually a defensive posture, Fang Chi frowned: “That’s right , Speaking of failure, I encountered such a thing when I was studying in the United States…” He deliberately prolonged the ending, and then quickly entered the topic: “I was robbed, by a black man.”

Unexpectedly, Fang Chi didn’t pay much attention to the word “grab”, did he make a mistake?

He was a little shaken: “One autumn night, I was jogging in the park next to the school, and I didn’t know he was following me.”

Suddenly, very suddenly, Micro Motion’s eyes changed, like a panicked wild deer, a Dive into his trap: “He came up from behind, with a knife in his hand, and he smelled very bad, you know, the smell of black people…” He paid attention to observing Micro Motion, observing his Adam’s apple rolling up and down, and the tightness The hand holding the tie: “I’m not short there, but I didn’t resist because I was afraid. I paid him all over, but there was no money in the sportswear.”

He sat farther away from Micro Motion. Closer: “Then he hit me, hit me hard, the bruise on my face lasted a week, but I was so glad he just hit me and didn’t kill me.”

Micro Motion was visibly terrified, Staring at his big watery eyes, and devoting his whole body to this story, Fang Chi laughed instead: “Now that I think about it, if I had resisted back then, maybe who would have beaten who!

” It was very close, as if whispering: “But after that, I didn’t dare to jog anymore. I had nightmares at night, and I often felt cold on my neck during the day, as if there was a knife…”

More sweat from Micro Motion On his forehead, sweat could be seen soaking through the shirt under the neckline, revealing the color of his skin, Fang Chi asked him again: “Do you want to take off your coat?”

Micro Motion shook his head, Fang Chi continued: “I dare not tell anyone Said, I’m afraid they will look down on me, Chinese men should save face.”

“And then?” Micro Motion asked with a trembling voice.

Fang Chi shook his hair easily, and distanced himself from him: “I told my mentor everything, and he healed me.”

Micro Motion obviously yearned for the word “healing”. Ask him: “You’re too hot, do you want to take off your coat?”

Gao Zhun shook his head first, then slowly, as if he was returning Fang Chi’s unreserved confession to him, and as if he finally relaxed, he nodded.

Fang Chi watched him stand up, turned his back, and started to unbutton his shirt.

Taking off his coat symbolizes letting go of his defenses. Fang Chi thinks this represents a big step forward in their therapeutic relationship, but he doesn’t understand why Micro Motion is wearing his back. He took it off very slowly, and when the high-end suit brushed off his shirt It made a luxurious sound, and when he stretched his arms, his back pulled out a wonderful curve. The waist was so thin that it seemed that it would break if he held it—his appetite probably wasn’t good either.

Gao Zhun wanted to turn around, but Fang Chi ordered him: “Take off the vest too.”

Gao Zhun paused, as if he had made up his mind, and started to unbutton the vest. He was already soaked through, and the fabric of his shirt was thin Sticking to the flesh, the texture of the lower head can be seen, Fang Chi asked: “Do you usually exercise?”

Micro Motion did not turn around for a long time, turned his head to answer: “I used to have the habit of exercising, but I haven’t gone there recently.”

“Why not ?”

Go?”

“Because… a lot of people, sweating, that smell…”

Which kind of smell?

Fang Chi really wanted to ask, but held back, today’s grades were good enough, he didn’t want to push him too hard: “Mr. Contact test,” he put down the pen and paper, stood up, and walked towards him: “You don’t have to move.”

Micro Motion responded, turned to face him, and at the same time took a step back, his face was strange, red from the heat, and Pale with fear, Fang Chi tried his best to comfort him: “If you want to change, you have to try to challenge yourself. If you can’t stand it, we can stop at any time.”

Gao Zhun shook his head: “No… I don’t want to try it, I think it’s meaningless, and it’s weird…”

Fang Chi immediately changed his tone of coaxing: “Don’t you trust me? This will make me very disappointed.”

Gao Zhun was obviously afraid of his possible “disappointment”, but it was actually a threat. In order to balance this sense of threat, Fang Chi persuaded: “Let’s try, shall we?”

Every time Fang Chi took a step closer to him, Micro Motion backed away One step, until he retreated to the wall, Fang Chi still didn’t give up: “Try once, okay?” Micro Motion could

n’t retreat, and looked at him with what could be called a pitiful begging expression: “Next time… Can you do it next time

?”

Fang Chi was a little surprised, he was making a condition to him: “I’m afraid you won’t come next time.”

Gao Zhun didn’t make a sound, it seemed that he had this plan, and Fang Chi realized that it was better to force him to come.

It was tight, so he withdrew the oppression and took the initiative to give up a few steps away: “I respect your decision, but please believe in your potential.”

He returned to the desk and wrote the “prescription”: “Next time we I will continue this physical contact practice, it is not as strange as you think, it will be done step by step, this is the homework I left for you,” he handed the note to Micro Motion, Micro Motion was released from the tense state, and walked over quickly Catch it and take a look: “Remove your tie?”

“Yes, it’s a behavioral homework.” Fang Chi put on a professional attitude: “I noticed that you refused to take off your tie, which often implies self-restraint and an unhealthy sense of security. I need You liberate yourself, try not to wear a tie when you go to work, practice for a week, and I will check and accept it when we meet next time.”

Micro

Motion wanted to argue, but Fang Chi certainly didn’t give him a chance: “Come here today.”

Thinkingly put on the vest and coat, picked up the delicate calfskin bag, and walked to the door: “Doctor Fang, I saw a Japanese tavern on the way here, do you want to have a drink?”

Fang Chi was stunned for a moment. According to what his instructor taught him and his many years of experience in the field, he should not have any contact with the client outside of treatment, but considering the next treatment, he agreed.

It took them only ten minutes to walk there. It was a very small shop. The proprietress was a Taiwanese who served good sake.

As soon as he drank it, Micro Motion answered the phone. He listened quietly at first, but finally said coldly and almost cruelly: “You have been with me for five years, and you have given me this kind of problem, 37 million , don’t look for me, do it yourself!”

After hanging up the phone, Fang Chi asked what was going on, and Gao Zhun only said lightly: “Collectible art, got chemical agents, don’t even think about doing it. “The

light was dim, and his soft facial curves seemed unreal, so Fang Chi changed the subject: “How did you and Lin Lin know each other?

” We have an exhibition and we need a ballerina.”

Fang Chi guessed that he often came to this kind of place: “She is not easy to chase.”

“She chased me,” Gao Zhun winked at him proudly: “She said she didn’t pay Had a boyfriend, but I don’t believe it.”

Fang Chi’s face froze, he shook his head and smiled, “I don’t believe it either.”

They were a little drunk that day, and even when they met again at the door of the consulting room a week later, the scene in the tavern The faint drunkenness seemed to have not dissipated, at least Fang Chi thought so, he smiled and stretched out his arms towards Micro Motion, and politely invited him in, but Micro Motion just stood at the door, staring at him incredulously, Fang Chi Chi felt that something was wrong, but he couldn’t say it. It wasn’t until Gao Zhun looked back at Secretary Feng that he realized that it was the air conditioner.

Sure enough, Micro Motion avoided looking at his face: “Miss Feng said that the air conditioner didn’t break down last week.”

Fang

Chi cried out in his heart, and he wanted to explain, but Micro Motion immediately asked, “Why did you lie to me?”

The expression on his face was angry and sad, like a child abandoned by his father, Fang Chi knew that he had hurt him again on his wound: “That’s just a technique…”

“Skills?” Gao Zhun looked like he was about to cry, “You used skills to me, not…” He opened his mouth empty, but Fang Chi knew that what he wanted to say was “feelings”.