Deep in the Act - Chapter 10

[Chapter 10]

The new secretary, surnamed Li, was in her forties and seemed a gentle and reliable person. She let Micro Motion into the consultation room, nodded to Fang Chi, and closed the door to go out.

“Doctor Fang.” Micro Motion avoided him, but the corners of his lips were pursed with an unconcealable smile.

“You’re in a good mood today?” Of course Fang Chi felt it, smiling like an old friend.

Micro Motion smiled even deeper: “I’m glad to be able to consult again…” He was like a shy child, blushing slightly, and the more he wanted to laugh, the harder he tried to hold back. This kind of child always makes people want to love him.

Fang Chi noticed that he didn’t seem to care about the closed door behind him at all, he didn’t sweat or fear: “Please sit down,” he walked over with a pen and paper, “Today let’s try the physical contact exercise we mentioned last time.” ”

Micro Motion did not sit down, but took a deep breath, put his trembling hands on the buttons of his suit: “About the air conditioner… I think you are right.” He faced Fang Chi and began to undress, One button, two buttons, open chest, tight waistline, Fang Chi swallowed his saliva unconsciously, and his throat tightened a little.

In fact, this move was a bit abrupt and forced. Fang Chi knew that Micro Motion did this to please him, but he did not interrupt, but watched him continue. Micro Motion gently put the warm suit on the chair Back, and then slowly and firmly touched the tie, today he is wearing an ascot tie, black and white pattern, very particular.

He grabbed the knot, pulled it lightly, and the silk tie came loose, hanging lightly and obediently on his chest: “I practiced as you said, is this okay?”

Oh my God!

Fang Chi didn’t say anything for a long time. This was the first time a man took off his clothes and tie to show him, and it was also the first time he felt embarrassed watching a man take off his clothes: “Mr. Gao,” he coughed: “You are doing very well… I want to ask, what are you thinking about when you are doing these exercises at home?

” Looking at me across the face, as I am now, you encourage me and give me courage.”

Fang Chi shook his head: “No, you should not do anything for me, but for yourself, such as untiing your tie, you want to relieve yourself, and don’t think about making me happy.

” Fang Chi didn’t know where to put his hand on the tie, and seemed to want to tie it back. Fang Chi found out, and immediately leaned over to grab his hand, and said softly, “It’s okay, take your time.”

They stood very close, close Fang Chi was surprised to be able to see his own face in the pupils of the other party. It turned out that he looked like this in his eyes, eager, honest, and sincere. He took another step forward and quickly pressed his face: “How far can you go?” Do you accept it?”

Gao Zhun immediately lowered his head, with a laughing voice: “This…it’s strange.”

Like the kind of smile being tickled by a good friend, Fang Chi felt that he was completely unsuspecting of himself: “I might He will behave more aggressively,” he took another step towards him, this time Micro Motion retreated, Fang Chi asked: “Why hide, we hugged each other that night, why are you afraid now?”

“No, I don’t know ” Micro Motion showed anxiety and began to breathe rapidly: “At night… I can’t see your face, now like this…”

Fang Chi took another step, Micro Motion stepped back again with red eyes, Fang Chi could see him Trying to adapt, in fact, for the two men, this distance has greatly exceeded the standard, but he just doesn’t want to stop, he knows that this is a kind of mild abuse, he just let himself go.

His back pressed against the wall, and Micro Motion couldn’t retreat. Fang Chi was two centimeters in front of him, and his breath kept spraying on his forehead. He closed his eyes, thinking that Fang Chi would come closer, but it didn’t. Fang Chi backed away After a while, he said softly: “Then let’s try to touch.”

Where?

This is a problem.

He has been in contact with PTSD patients before and has done similar treatments. His experience tells him that it is a good idea to start with the shoulders, but the target is Micro Motion. He plans to change the method: “Mr. They are all sensitive parts, so…” He waved his slender fingers in front of his eyes: “Can I touch your face?”

He managed to attract Micro Motion’s attention. This technique can greatly increase the subject’s sensitivity. Micro Motion’s eyes moved between him and those fingers, showing a timid expression: “Just touching…”

Fang Chi laughed: “What else can I do?”

Gao Zhun froze for a moment, lowered his head awkwardly, Fang Chi tentatively put his palm on his forehead, sweat was on his forehead, it seemed that he was still nervous: “Relax, if you feel uncomfortable, put I want to be a woman.”

Gao Zhun didn’t speak, but endured stubbornly, Fang Chi’s finger went down the bridge of his nose, touched the tip of the nose lightly, and landed in the middle of the person, the flesh here is very soft, the finger stayed for a short time, slipping Pass the slightly raised lips, press the depression of the lower lip line, continue down, the chin bone, Adam’s apple, collar, fast panting chest, upper abdomen, muscle tight belly, until Versace’s metal belt buckle, He stopped: “Then the limbs.” The

big hands moved to the sides to the waist, and stroked up the ribs to the armpits. It might be itchy or uncomfortable. Micro Motion trembled and bit his lips hard. Fang Chi stretched out his hand and poked it: “Don’t bite.”

“Can, can you stop…” Gao Zhun looked at him pleadingly: “It’s strange.”

“Be patient,” Fang Chi followed his arms, shoulders, and forearms. He touched his wrist in order, wrapped it around and shook it, then turned his palm up and joined him, Gao Zhun suddenly looked at him, with a strange look, Fang Chi noticed it, and was wondering, Micro Motion moved his finger , entangled him, and clasped fingers with him.

It was just a matter of a split second, the two of them were stunned, Gao Zhun quickly withdrew his hand, blushing: “Yes, I’m sorry!”

Fang Chi frowned, as if realizing something, Gao Zhun hurriedly explained to him : “I’m sorry, I haven’t shook hands with anyone for a long time, and I’m too nervous…”

“Shh…” Fang Chi comforted him: “It’s okay, when you’re with me, you can do whatever you want. ”

Micro Motion looked at him with a somewhat complaining expression, as if he wanted him to stop, but Fang Chi didn’t mean to give in, he squatted down next to him: “Then there are legs.” In order to ease the atmosphere, he joked: “You Don’t kick me.”

Gao Zhun didn’t smile, Fang Chi felt that his whole body was tense, his legs were clamped tightly, and he held the beautiful thigh muscles: “Separate them a little bit, is that okay?”

Gao Zhun didn’t move, and he also It’s not too much to force, the hand slides down the fine trousers fabric, wraps the knee, drops the calf, wraps around the ankle, and then plans to go back the same way, Micro Motion has been doing its best to cooperate, when his hand goes from bottom to top While groping, Gao Zhun couldn’t take it anymore, and pressed his hands tightly with both hands to prevent him from taking any further steps: “Don’t…don’t…”

“Why are you trembling?” Fang Chi asked.

“I don’t know.”

“You lied to me.”

“I didn’t lie, I really don’t know!” He began to push Fang Chi. Fang Chi was surprised at first, but soon realized that this might be an opportunity, so he symbolically and He pulled, he only used a small force, but Micro Motion’s reaction was great, like a fish caught out of the water, struggling desperately in his arms, his brow bone was scratched, and his cheek was punched , but still firmly grasping Micro Motion’s wrist, turned him over and pressed him against the wall from behind, pressing him down with all his strength.

Gao Zhun

was crying, without the ability to resist at all, Fang Chi gradually relaxed his body, gasped and said, “Tell me, how does it feel?”

, gently turned him over, he will never forget that look for the rest of his life, like torn velvet, and like shattered glass shards, his face was crying messily, and there was coquettishness and anger in the mess, he hurriedly Wiping his tears, repeating: “It’s okay, it’s okay.”

Gao Zhun’s tears seemed to be unstoppable, accumulating in the palm of his hand, trickling down his wrist, Fang Chi was a little anxious, like that day Hugging him like in the night, he stroked his back slowly: “I’m sorry, I just want to know what happened to you.”

Hearing this, Gao Zhun drilled deep into his chest as if to bury himself, Fang Chi sighed With one breath, he comforted the hot body wrapped in expensive clothes: “Can you tell me how you feel now?”

“You are so cruel…” The voice seemed to come from the chest: “It seems to be I strip.”

Fang Chi didn’t pay attention to the deep meaning in his words: “I promise, I will never treat you like this again, and I will never make you cry again.”

“I have shed too many tears…”

Fang Chi had an idea, thinking of A technique commonly used in Gestalt therapy: “If you were not you now, but your tears, what do you think you would say?”

Fang Chi thought of a technique commonly used in Gestalt therapy: “If you are not your tears now It’s your tears, what do you think you’ll say?”

“I’ll say…” Micro Motion’s nasal voice mumbled, “Whoever it is, catch me, hold me, take me in, even if it’s with body temperature I’m going to evaporate!”

Fang Chi didn’t expect his inner dialogue to be so hopeless: “You think no one wants you?”

Gao Zhun nodded: “My mother just wants me to save face for her, Lin Lin…she has Prada and Louis Vuitton is enough.”

“You are too negative,” Fang Chi noticed that his two important individuals are both women, and they are more emotional projections to him than emotional exchanges: “Let’s assume that you become you tie, what do you want to say?”

Micro Motion seemed to have calmed down, one side of his face was resting peacefully on his chest, refusing to leave it: “I think I will say that now Dr. Fang Chi is protecting Micro Motion, but out of After entering this consulting room, I still have to rely on me to protect him.”

Fang Chi smiled: “Do you think me and your tie are in competition?”

“No, he is your substitute,” Micro Motion thought for a while: “No Maybe every day is Wednesday, isn’t it?”

Fang Chi was silent, he knew that his words and deeds had a huge impact on the patient, but he never thought that it would have such a big impact, he asked further: “Just now we did physical contact exercises, I almost touched your whole body, what do you think is the most unacceptable touch?”

There were only the two of them in the consulting room, Micro Motion felt at ease, because of the peace of mind, he dared to say anything: “If it’s you, it seems that I can do it anywhere accept.”

Fang Chi suddenly felt an extremely strong and passionate emotion, he couldn’t tell where it came from, and he couldn’t explain why, it was a kind of ecstasy of being pleased, and his head was dizzy: “Really?” He immediately Realizing that this question should not be asked, it is not a doctor’s question, but out of selfishness: “I am more important to you… than Zuo Linlin?”

Gao Zhun felt him wrap his arms around his Tighten up, and said slightly: “It seems… yes.”

Fang Chi took a long time to digest this sentence, as if what he held in his arms was not a patient, but a pet or property, which he could give or take I ask.

After a while, he calmed down the frenzy in his heart, and then asked: “Just now your waist and legs reacted more, what do you think is the reason?”

Micro Motion stopped talking again, so he changed the way of asking: “If you were your legs, What do you want to say to my hand?”

“Slow down, give me some time.”

“What if it’s not my hand?”

Gao Zhun immediately tensed up, “Don’t touch me!”

Fang Chi closed his eyes and reminded himself , Fang Chi, don’t empathize with the patient, don’t try to turn the patient into your own, it’s dangerous, but he still held up Micro Motion’s face, pretending to be affectionate: “I want to touch your leg again, Is it okay?”

Gao Zhun couldn’t say no to him, Fang Chi knew that he was the one who trained him to be like this.

Micro Motion trembled, seeing Fang Chi squatting down in front of him, holding one of his ankles, and stroking up his calf, slower than last time, but harder.

“Your muscles are fighting against me, because they have memory,” Fang Chi squeezed his hands between the two locked knees: “Now I want them to remember my hands, remember that I am safe with them. ”

Micro Motion’s reaction can be described as trembling. He tried his best to endure. Fang Chi’s hand rested on his thigh, and the warmth of his hand passed through his trousers, burning his flesh. This reminded him of that night. Help, pain, and was about to yell, Fang Chi stopped suddenly, stood up and walked back to his desk: “Today is fine, Mr. Gao, see you next Wednesday.”

Gao Zhun was stunned, like a neglected but well-behaved dog, obediently picked up the purse, and turned back to ask after reaching the door: “Consultation… can it be changed to twice a week?”

Fang Chi smiled at him: ” The queue is full recently, so we may have to wait.”

Micro Motion left with disappointment, but Fang Chi felt very satisfied.

Just as he was about to get off work, Zuo Linlin

called: “Charles, Micro Motion is in good shape recently. We would like to invite you out to play. Thank you by the way.”

Lin Lin’s idea: “No, Lin Lin, you know that psychiatrists should not step into the life circle of clients.”

“Just have dinner together on weekends or go shopping, I haven’t seen a movie for a long time!” With that kind of tone, tough yet intimate, it was her opponent Chi’s usual method.

Strangely, Fang Chi realized that she seemed to have no control over him, so he easily and decisively refused: “I still can’t, thank you.”