Dark Blood Age - Chapter 630

[Chapter 630 Bound, there are evil wolves in my heart!]

During the fight, Chu Yunsheng’s hand gradually left her lips.

But she didn’t dare to cry out for help. Once she was found out by others, she would not be able to be a human being, nor would she have the courage to face her daughter.

Although the clothes were stripped, she was unusually calm. She was not a woman of ordinary wisdom. After the initial panic, she quickly realized that the more she struggled at this time, the easier it was to stimulate the perpetrator’s frantic nerves. She tried to delay. Time, and try to be gentle:

“Xiao Chu, Auntie can give it to you, but it’s too unhygienic now. Would you like to take a bath first?”

…

To no avail, Chu Yunsheng was still tearing her clothes.

In the face of failure, she was not discouraged, and immediately changed her mind, saying:

“Xiao Chu, you are still young. You can’t ruin your life because of impulsiveness. If you need it, auntie will introduce you to a girlfriend. It must be prettier than auntie and suitable for you.”

…

She bit the word “Auntie” very hard, and her tone was very serious, but it still didn’t seem to have any effect, Chu Yunsheng began to tear his own clothes.

The situation has reached a critical moment, and the next step is,,, in the face of another failure, she still did not give up, as long as she did not take that step, she still had a chance, hold Chu Yunsheng tightly with both hands and unbutton her pants. The hand of the belt changed another angle again, saying:

“Xiao Chu, think about it, if you did this, what would your friends think of you? What would Yingying think of you? How could your aunt and uncle in the hospital believe that you would do such a thing? And yours? Cousin and cousin, you are a brother, what do they think of you?”

…

This time, her words seemed to hit a key point in Chu Yunsheng, causing his frantically excited and hideous pupils to shrink slightly, and the movements of his hands slowed down because of this, as if he was hesitating and struggling, or in other words, he was fighting with some kind of victim. Amplified uncontrolled desire to wrestle.

After discovering the slight changes in Chu Yunsheng, she was smart and immediately understood where Chu Yunsheng’s weakness was. She released a left hand that was basically in vain to stop Chu Yunsheng, and went to do something more meaningful. Ying’s photo frame was brought over, held in front of Chu Yunsheng, and quickly said:

“Xiao Chu, you have relatives. If you do this, you will not only hurt you, but also them. I also have relatives, and you will also hurt me and Yingying.”

Chu Yunsheng gradually stopped there, his hands and feet were stalemate, and the voice full of desire was still overwhelming, because he felt that it would not hurt anyone, so he fought fiercely. However, his reason and calmness were like fleeing in a sea of anger. The flat boat, however, no longer seems to collapse after a rush.

She shook Song Ying’s photo while the iron was hot and continued: “Xiao Chu, think about it, if you really did this, how would you let me face Yingying, how would you let my daughter see me? Also, You are still young, and you will have children in the future, how do you want your children to treat you and their father in the future!?”

The last sentence, as if the sharp sword had hit Chu Yunsheng in the dead end, he “frightened” and jumped up from the bed, taking a few steps back!

In my mind, a huge calm and rational voice echoed in the sky:

You really can’t hurt anyone! ? So how will you deal with your daughter? Are you worthy of being a father?

…

The huge voice was wrapped in a cold and incomparable killing aura, trampled out from the hundreds of millions of fragments, like a stabbing blade in the hands of the most heroic warrior, rushing towards the instinctive desire aura in consciousness, in the black gas With the full assistance of energy, the two sides reluctantly suppressed the monstrous temptation sound.

The outside force that seemed to have suffered heavy damage, silently seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, more like a more worried sigh, and retreated without a trace, as if it had never appeared.

At the moment when the temptation sound was about to disappear, Chu Yunsheng suddenly heard a wonderful girl singing that was almost fleeting, as if it came from a distant fairyland. It was the most beautiful melody in the world, mysterious but extremely Beautiful, it can’t help but produce a kind of longing thoughts.

Then, he felt a kind of bondage in the depths of his soul being loosened, like being suppressed in a damp and suffocating dark swamp suddenly penetrated into a clear air.

It is a pity that the singing cannot be understood, let alone comprehended, or even remembered. The moment he was awake, it disappeared without a trace, as if the door from which the singing was heard was closed again.

…

“Sorry!”

After regaining his sanity, Chu Yunsheng turned his back and faced the scattered desk, searching for words, but in the cluttered room, all language seemed pale, and he could only say these three words.

His bowels are full of regrets, and he can’t wait to give the thing that caused the trouble to the gelding. Anyway, this thing is basically useless in the world of fake monuments except to cause trouble. However, he is actually very clear in his heart that the real trouble is not this innocent thing. , whether it’s hormones or sex hormones, physiological stimulation can’t cause him to lose his mind, let alone make him behave like a beast.

The problem is with him! To be precise, it was in his self-consciousness.

Whether it is the tempting voice, the panic and anger that drives the black qi, and the huge and stern questioning at the end, it is his own voice, his own thoughts, his own concepts, consciousness, and emotions. Not imposed on him by anyone or any outside factor!

At this age, he will not refuse to admit that something is wrong with him, nor will he escape from reality like an ostrich with his head buried in the sand.

He needs to analyze what the problem is?

He doesn’t deny that he has a “wolf” in his heart. He doesn’t understand whether people are inherently evil or good. He only knows that the reason why people distinguish between animals and the reason why normal people distinguish extreme people is because the human head is a kind of restraint. The balance, knowing what can be done and what cannot be done, once the balance is broken, a certain consciousness or emotion has the absolute upper hand, such as hatred, anger, lust for power, lust and even coddling, jealousy, etc. Reasonable extreme behaviors, such as murder, rape, cheating, and harassment, seem unreasonable, but they do follow the universal law that what kind of consciousness governs what kind of action.

He has also been angry, desperate, and extreme. He has always believed that this is normal, and it is the outbreak and need of emotions, but if it is more and more easy to be angry, desperate, and extreme, then it is not normal.

It was not until today that he almost made a big mistake under the impulse that he realized and faced up to this problem for the first time, and what happened today also provided him with the best chance to discover the problem. Unlike before, this time he has been Can clearly remember the whole process of the whole thing, including the various emotional conflicts in the fierce confrontation in the consciousness.

He remembered that a psychologist said that consciousness and emotions are also a kind of energy, but they can’t be seen or touched, but his current thinking is exactly the opposite. From the incident just now, he guessed whether energy affected his emotions and amplified them. ?

He doesn’t have much information, so he can only speculate from the black qi. He doesn’t know whether the black qi energy is destructive energy or not, but he does know one thing. By analogy, there must be some kind of energy he doesn’t know that is amplifying the “wolf” in his heart or the desire to make hormones impulsive.

Perhaps, it was because of the intervention of these messy energies that his head was unable to maintain the established balance, suddenly amplifying his anger, and suddenly amplifying his desire. Every time he broke the balance, he fell into a fatal predicament.

If the root of the problem is here, then there are only two solutions he can think of.

The first is to smother the root cause. The rootless fire has a base number of zero. No matter how much it is enlarged, it is futile. Although this method is effective in cutting grass and rooting, it is impossible to achieve. Chu Yunsheng does not think that he is a bad guy, but he can’t kill it. Suddenly, an evil thought will pop up, and all kinds of conscious thoughts and emotions themselves are the colorful meanings of life, and they are all erased. It is better to die.

The second way is to treat others in the same way. Now, the energy of indulging desires is sitting on the top, and the black energy energy that can suppress it declines. This has caused the big mistake that almost caused today. In the cultivation of vitality realm, it is more urgent to find a way to strengthen black qi.

In the previous intense ideological confrontation, he found that there was nothing wrong with what he said. He also realized when he was in the botanical forest before that his own strength became stronger and stronger with the cultivation of vitality, and he became more and more proud and subconscious. Self-confidence and self-confidence, so the balance in behavior is still the first to break the balance of his own, and he can’t be linked to others. The energy is just a magnifying tool under the conscious use and the unconscious use.

Everything is rooted in himself!

Perhaps at this moment, he really understands what some seniors have said repeatedly, all foreign objects, including spawning mucus, weapons, exercises, etc., are just tools, and self-cultivation is the foundation.

He couldn’t live up to the state of mind of his predecessors, the extremely strong force, the changes in the environment, the world alone… These, etc., had a great impact on his psychology. Compared with the peaceful state of mind of the predecessors, it can be said to be naive. Maybe Only the birth of a spirit can finally solve this problem, but he also understands reality very well. With his current level, he is far from the peaceful realm of his predecessors, and he cannot solve the problem quickly in the most correct way. This is a long-term process. Only through external intervention.

Therefore, if he wants to restore the original balance, he must use the black energy as a weapon of adjustment, which is the only tool in his hand that can manipulate and interfere with the balance.

It’s just that he doesn’t know the source of black qi. Whether it can be cultivated is a fog. There is no textbook model to learn from, and no one can give guidance. Everything needs to be explored by himself, or even create a new system. .

Fortunately, there is no clue. Black qi is related to his own consciousness changes and emotions. He knows this, but he will not use his own emotions to cultivate black qi. It is completely self-harm and suicide. The only clue is that in the sky above the North Pole base, the strange effect of the gathering talisman was produced when the arrow broke the sky.

However, even so, the risk is very huge, and it is necessary to understand the difference in principle and the side effects of black qi as energy instead of vitality talisman.

This is also a complex project that requires long-term and unremitting research, and the current embarrassing situation is completely inappropriate.

From the small black bag spread out on the table, he saw an exposed business card with the word “Su Su” written on the Chinese side, which must be her real name. At this time, a calm voice came from behind him:

“Turn around.”

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