Dark Blood Age - Chapter 390

[Chapter 390 I have tried my best]

Chu Yunsheng was pierced by several inexplicable people for no reason. Although he successfully counterattacked brilliantly and stunned the audience by flying the helmet of the golden-armored woman, he couldn’t even say a word. Asking to understand, Lao Sun and others rushed out.

Of course, he couldn’t ask if he wanted to, and his torn throat couldn’t make any normal sound at all. However, when he saw and heard, Lao Sun nodded and bowed at the Jinjia people, and kept apologizing like a grandson, and immediately expressed “thousands of thanks” for Chu Yunsheng who could not speak for “recuperation expenses”.

Chu Yunsheng was silent for a while. Old Sun’s information was wrong, and he provoked a force that Team 9 could not afford. He needed to apologize to protect himself. He could understand that there was nothing to say. However, he was attacked for no reason until he was bleeding and injured, but he still needed to give the perpetrator “thousands of gratitude” like his grandson, which made him feel like a ball of cotton was stuck in his chest uncontrollably.

He couldn’t overturn the fact that here, in this plant forest, as long as he still wore this mask, Lao Sun, as the captain, would always represent him.

It’s nothing at all, he can always do anything to survive, but after the darkness came, he avoided, escaped, wretched, pretended to be dead… Wait, he has done everything, but he has never been so useless. , was attacked, and humiliated “thousands of gratitude”, even in the battle of Huangshan, in the face of a powerful enemy as many as the stars, he would rather die than surrender, how could he ever do this! ?

However, among so many people, this group of people was stuck in his chest, and he felt like he had a useless feeling, but it suddenly made him see himself clearly for the first time since the Dark Ages from another angle.

Immediately, he understood why he wanted to learn “numbness” and the way of life of others, he needed to “learn”, not like that woman, who naturally faced all disasters and smoothed out all the knots in his heart.

Because no matter how he kept reminding himself and telling himself that he had to have self-knowledge, he had to know how much he weighed, but in his heart, there was always a trace of pride hidden in his heart, a trace of pride brought by ancient books.

This pride was buried like a seed in his heart, and from the beginning he separated himself from others and treated everyone with a “condescending” perspective that he had never noticed, whether it was friends, relatives, brothers, or enemies. All the people he hated.

Whether it’s the Sunshine Age or the Dark Age, no matter how incompetent people are, there is a sense of “self-appreciation” deep in their hearts, and they can always find something “different” for themselves as a self-comforting “pride” .

This thing, in the Sunshine Age, is literally called “dignity”!

Everyone has their own self-esteem and their own pride. Even if no one else admits it, he will confirm himself. Chu Yunsheng also had exactly the same mentality in the Sunshine Age, but since entering the Dark Age, this thing has happened. A strange change he never noticed.

As his power became stronger and stronger, the talented Awakeners were defeated in his hands, and the seed of confidence became deeper and deeper. When even the Ice and Fire Alien Race and God Domain Insect Min were unable to defeat him, this Silk’s hidden pride in his heart has actually reached its peak.

But it’s not a good thing. When a person’s “pride” and “self-esteem” hidden deep in his heart are too strong, but the reality still cruelly causes him to break his head, lose again and again, and can’t keep anything, This contrast of stabbing and frustration can make people feel at a loss and pain.

Chu Yunsheng was held on the arm by the masked teammates, and it became more and more smooth in a trance. From the beginning, this hidden pride made him think that he could keep Yu Xiaohai, but he watched Yu Xiaohai disappear; Then he thought he would save the family he loved, only to watch the entire Jinling City disappear;…Finally, he thought he could save the idiot like a brother, only to watch the idiot commit suicide again. .

After each loss, he began to cultivate desperately, desperately improving his strength, seeking an extreme, so his strength became stronger and stronger, and the pride became more and more self-hiding and breeding, but every time he still couldn’t keep what he thought he could keep. thing.

When the tears have dried up, the grief has nowhere to hold, and even the hatred has come to an end, just because there was a trace of hidden pride and self-confidence in his heart, what is still tormenting his heart in the end, only the strong self-blame remains, I hate myself for being unsatisfactory!

Pride is too strong, but ability is too weak, and it is the root of all contradictions and pain.

He has always only been aware of the contradiction, so he just immersed himself in the race against the cruel world, and tried every means to improve his strength and ability, but he never once really looked back at the “pride” and “self-esteem” that had become more and more detached from reality.

This thing is like a “inner demon”. The stronger the ability, the stronger it is. It hinders him from accepting the cruel reality that he has to accept, tortures his contradictory mind, and affects his every move and behavior.

The woman who carried the corpse was able to accept her situation numbly because she had no ability to struggle and resist; the woman with the bow could not get rid of her desire for the bow until she died, because her power gave her blind pride; and he, Why not! ?

Chu Yunsheng suddenly woke up as if he had woken up from a nightmare.

Since the first day of darkness, he has been trapped in this nightmare, an endless cycle of dreams, and he has never been able to break free from its shackles, until just now, in the grandson-like sound of “thousands of thanks” from the masked grandson, he All his pride and self-respect were torn to shreds at this moment, and not an inch was left. The cage that trapped his soul was finally suddenly opened. From then on, it was wide open! ! !

I have already done my best……

Facing the familiar shadows flying in his mind, Chu Yunsheng felt relieved, saying “I tried my best”, and said the bitterness that he had suppressed for too long.

At this moment, his whole body was relieved, and a feeling of “release” that he had never had before came to his heart, which made him cry. These tears were not for anyone, but only for himself, only for He had been imprisoned for a long time and flowed from his own heart.

He let the masked man pull himself away and looked at the Jinjia man and the others. He wanted to laugh, but he hadn’t “really” laughed for a long time, and his stubborn mouth almost made him forget the feeling of smiling.

“Dumb, you can still laugh?” The thin masked man looked at Chu Yunsheng’s strange smile twisted on the mask in surprise.

Chu Yunsheng did not change his smile and turned to look at him, as if to say, why can’t I laugh? I want to laugh!

“Mute is laughing at her own life, and I have to snicker for me, Golden Armor, if you really want to kill Mute, where is Mute still alive? She doesn’t even use her own weapons!

However, Dumb really has you! You are the first person in our masked man legion, no, in the entire plant forest, except for our legion commander, the black armored commander and the green armored commander, the first person in history who can fly the helmet of the golden armored commander with one spear. I guess it won’t be long before everyone in the whole plant forest will know that your kid is about to become famous! Maybe the Legion Commander will meet you in person! “The masked man driving Chu Yunsheng said with emotion.

The thin masked man looked back and forth at Chu Yunsheng strangely and carefully, and said half-soundingly, “Don’t say it, Lao Liu, it’s really possible, we all underestimated the dumb, and I heard that when the dumb was assigned, no one wanted it. , the brigade was forced into our 9th team, at this moment, Wang Datou of the 7th team and Gao Laozhuang of the 10th team will probably regret it to the death, or our Sun team is mighty!”

Chu Yunsheng was stabbed within a few days of “working”, and the result was not completely without benefits. In addition to receiving a so-called “recuperation fee” from the Jinjia woman, it also established his status in the 9th team. , although he doesn’t really care about that last point.

A group of masked people who were frustrated by “extortion” hurriedly bandaged Chu Yunsheng, and immediately rushed to the next black market point, a place where the lowest level of human transactions in a plant forest city was needed. Although there was nothing too big there. Oily water, but again never anything too deep in the background.

If you insist that in this black market spot, if some people do have a backstage, then the Mask Man 9 team is probably their biggest backstage.

This is the struggle line of the bottom human beings, but it is the paradise of the 9th team of masked people. Here, no one dares to go against their will. They have the right to place a spy and other charges at will, but they openly deprive the other party of all “property”” body” or even “life”.

Chu Yunsheng felt that they were now like “city managers” on a small street in the Sunshine Age, because when Lao Sun and the others appeared on the street, he heard someone exclaim: “The masked man is here, run away! !”

Then, chickens and dogs jumped, cans and bottles fell, and the whole street suddenly became a mess. The stalls were closed and the carts were pushed.

When they ran out of breath to the end of the street, the thin masked man in the third row turned around from the corner and spit out a smoke ring at them.

Facing the dumbfounded crowd, the thin masked man rubbed his itchy eyelids with his fingers on the body of the cigarette, and said indifferently: “Old Seventeen, what are you doing, take it! Today is the worst luck for you, bro. Let you choose first!”

He didn’t use the word “robbing” as a robber, nor did he use the official word “confiscation”, but only used the word “take” very casually, as if it were in his own home!

It can be seen how corrupted this place has been?

Old Seventeen refers to Chu Yunsheng. After his position in Team 9 was solid, his first change was to upgrade from “dumb” to “Old Seventeen”, with Lao Sun as the eldest and the other fifteen masked people in order. , to Chu Yunsheng’s place, that is, the old seventeen.

Chu Yunsheng’s eyes swept away the tattered crowd. They immediately lowered their heads and avoided Chu Yunsheng’s gaze. For fear of being caught by Chu Yunsheng’s hands, they stepped back timidly. The gap between his legs was exposed, and he looked at the masked man nervously.

He suddenly stretched out his hand to “take” the dirt smoke from the thin masked man’s hand, leaned against the wall with his spear in his arms, took a breath, and felt the burning smell of smoke. He didn’t want to get involved in anything here, he just wanted to enjoy his mind The moment of tranquility after breaking free.

Moreover, he is not enough to rob a group of people worse than him.

“Damn, actually took Lao Tzu!” The thin masked man rubbed his empty fingers, stunned for a moment, and scolded: “What are you grandchildren looking at? What is there to see? Seek death! The man stands on the left, the woman stand on the right, hurry up, hurry up and stand for Lao Tzu!”

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